Campus Summer 1970
(photo: Brian Jasper (ENGG 1971-72)
Today I am sitting in a cold office, staring aimlessly into a computer and wondering about my purpose. Why am I here. What am I doing. How long until I can stand up, walk out of corporate america, and never look back.
I wish nothing more than to be in a field right now. Warm winds seeping through my hair and the sun shining so bright that I have to close my eyes a little just to see clearly. A nice warm nap in nature. Grass tickling my arms and feet and gazing out into a never-ending quilt of daisies and sunflowers and other wild things. Freckles on my nose. A calming silence mixed with birds singing to one another. Watching clouds pass while painting pictures in my mind.
But... I am here. In an office with no windows. I feel trapped and claustrophobic and that there is no way out. I need to be inspired. Fingers crossed that a writing career is near in my future, because I don't know how much more of this office I can stand.
seriously know the feeling. it bothers me to no end to think i will be spending the majority of my time sitting behind a desk rather than spending it with the people i love or not doing what makes me feel happy and fulfilled. f corporate america and the 9-to-5. i can't wait until we both are able to do what makes our souls joyful.
ReplyDeleteand btw, you should land that job. you're an amazing writer. you should check out http://or-so-i-feel.blogspot.com/ if you haven't already. she is also an awesome writer. i could sit & read her blog (like yours) all day.
love you, k.
oh my, i wish i were lying in my flower field right now, basking in the 80 degree weather! but instead i'm stuck inside with a migraine and what seems to be a nasty cold coming on. BUT, i have photos that i took of my favourite field last week that i'm posting today, hopefully it will inspire us a little. :)
ReplyDeletei am with you! i want nothing more than to feel "free" again. I miss the days of my nanny life...going to the park with kids, pushing them on swings, teaching them about bugs and plants. I miss it. i can't wait to be a mom and hopefully get to stay home with them and teach them about nature and life. take photographs all day and bake...lots and lots of baking.
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