Wednesday, July 27, 2011

To the degree that we are lost, it is on the same Ocean, in the same night.

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Just in case you were wondering, I have been doing an incredible amount of work on myself this year. So far, seven months into 2011, it has already been one heck of a whirlwind of emotional let downs and dissapointments. But as my dad always says, you are resonsible for how you feel each day.

And, for now anyway, I decide to be happy.

When things get really hard, I remind myself that we are each the Universe - not only a small part, but in reality we are the Universe entirely. We are all composed of 99% the same elements, therefore we are all so connected to one another that the line between where you end and I begin remains blurred and faint. It feels better knowing that we are all together, rather than totally separate entities wandering around aimlessly hurting one another for no apparent reason. When you hurt others, you also hurt yourself. When you are kind to others, you are also being kind to yourself.

And because we are only separated by that 1%, we can only distance ourself but so far from one another. But doesn't that 1% feel like an eternity, sometimes?

This is a quote that brings this idea together for me -

I no longer expect things to make sense. I know there is no safety. But that does not mean there is no magic. It does not mean there is no hope. It simply means that each of us has reason to be wishful and frightened, aspiring and flawed. And it means that to the degree we are lost, is it on the same Ocean, in the same night.
Elizabeth Kayle

There are some things that have happened this year that have left a black cloud of thick negative energy around me. So, I am trying to feed the positive back into my life one day at a time. And you know what? It's working.

Just when I thought the spark and excitement had totally left my marriage, I fed it positive energy and as a result I feel like we are finally back on track.

Just when I thought negativity was taking over my self image completely, I fed it positive energy by joining a gym and being more social and I feel like I am worthy again.

Just when I thought that my life was so boring that it would be impossible to be happy, I fed it positive energy and now I am doing more and seeing more than I have in a very long time.

Just when I thought I was insignificant and the work I did professionally didn't matter, I fed it positive energy and not only did I get a raise, but my clients seem to be responding better than ever to treatment.

Just when I thought I would be miserable because we didn't get the house we wanted, I fed it positive energy and am having more fun than ever re-decorating our loft with Sean.

Just when I thought my heart was broken from people leaving my life, I fed it positive energy and others have come into my life who are fulfilling and healthy.

Just when I thought we were too poor to ever have a decent vacation, I fed it positive energy and Sean and I are now planning a trip to London sometime next year.

It takes a lot of work to feed positive energy into a negative situation, but it's worth it.

1 comment:

  1. you are so inspiring. i feel ya! :)


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