Thursday, October 06, 2011

so this morning i woke up and my car was dead.

I really hate to start out the day complaining, but I'm so tired of being poor and for some reason I feel much better after a mini bitch session. Sean and I currently have 2 cars, and because his is on it's last leg and he has further of a drive to work.... I decided to basically be Mother Theresa and trade cars with him. Big mistake. The car had to be jumped yesterday after work, and this morning it still wouldn't start. Thankfully though, I was able to walk to work and I treated myself to a Venti Iced Coffee for the hell of it. Hey, it's the little things right?

It's just that being poor sucks. I work really hard at a really stressful job, and my bank account still goes into the negatives more times than I'd like. I have to cancel dinner/brunch/happy hour/etc plans with friends because I never have any money, and honestly it's embarrassing. Sean and I make pretty good salaries, but between student loans and rent... we are beyond broke. Every month we have to decide which bills to pay on time, and debate on if we should buy groceries and if so how many. I can't tell you how many times I eat a can of soup for lunch or tuna. I also can't tell you the last time I ate a dorito.... and I looooove doritos.

This is why I get SO IRKED by politicians, specifically extremely weathy white males who have no idea what it feels like to work hard and still not get paid enough. Have you been following the Wall Street Protestors? Basically, they are protesting because they are tired of the corruption in our government. It's not political-party based, it's just simply American's who are tired of working hard and getting short handed.

If you haven't already, please look at the ignorant comment that Republican Candidate Herman Cain made in a public interview:

Sure there's a degree of personal responsibility when it comes to wealth. But there are some poor people, myself included, who work their asses off every day just to make ends meet. How dare some one make such an outlandish assumption about a group of people that they obviously don't know very much about.

I hate politics. Enough about that.

This is what I am lucky enough to look at every day that I walk to and from work. Driving, I don't usually take notice and I miss a lot of the beauty. So I'm thankful that I was not only healthy enough and able to walk to work, but that I only had to walk 2 miles and the scenery was freakin' gorgeous. Plus, it felt pretty good to feel the cool fall air on my skin and I arrived to work feeling more refreshed than usual.

I'm thankful for my husband, who woke up early this morning and did all of the dishes that I didn't have the energy to wash last night after dinner. He also cooked for me last night, and made me laugh after a somewhat annoying day at work.

I'm thankful that I have a job, and that although I am struggling... my bills are getting paid and I am totally independent, which also feels pretty amazing. I'm smart and have learned a lot at my current job which will make transitioning into a new career field much easier. As a matter of fact, I went on an interview last week and I have another today. It feels good to have options.

I'm thankful for my friends, especially my best friend Brittany who has taken a vow with me to explore Richmond and meet new people and see new places. We've already discovered a really sweet place for brunch and a new bar that has some amazing live bands -- the Weezer Cover Band two weeks ago was particularly awesome!

And finally, I'm thankful for what little money that I do have and also thankful that I work hard for it and appreciate every last penny. I don't have to stand outside holding a cardboard sign, and I don't ever have to skip meals. I have plenty of options, and I'm lucky and thankful that I'm at a time in my life when I can explore them. Who know's what's around the corner...

It's important to be thankful for what you do have, and it's also okay to get upset when things don't go as you might have planned. Every emotion is sacred, and should be felt and then let go again. The Universe has a way of balancing things out, and I do believe that if you keep working hard you will be rewarded.

What are you thankful for?


  1. I am thankful for being Scottish, because my university fees are paid by the government. We are very lucky. x

  2. @Lauren: you have no idea how jealous that makes me. between my husband and i, we pay nearly $1,000per MONTH for our loans. i'll just be happy if we can get some form of universal healthcare passed! :)

  3. You know, girl, I'm thankful for this blog post. I'm new to your blog (found you through Twitter) and I'm going through a similar situation, but I'm always hesitant to bitch about it online. Lately all I've wanted to do is vent to my blog buddies!

    The canceling on friends is the worst part. Because I try not to tell them it's a money thing, so then they just assume I'm a flake and stop inviting me. It's been pretty embarrassing and really hurtful. BIG HUGS!

    (also I'm thankful it's fall. And I'm sorry for the long comment)

  4. @Meghan - omg i can totally relate to the ''flake'' thing. i dont like using the money excuse because lets be honest, its awkward. so i always say i cant for some reason or another and ive had ''friends'' flat out tell me that they arent going to hang out with me anymore because i always say no to hanging out! the friends that actually have stuck around are pretty great, and i usually try to go out and do something fun at least once a week and also think of free things to invite them to!

    bitch away! it's your blog and honestly it feels freakin GREAT to bitch every once in a while!

    p.s. -- im obsessed with fall, so im extremely thankful for all things fall as well :)

  5. i'm thankful that i have a job too, buuuut that's not to say i don't hate it. ugh, i totally feel ya on this WHOLE post. i am flat broke and so tired of living paycheck to paycheck, and my student loans havent even kicked in yet. FML. not having the $ to hang out with friends has made me lose so many in the past and now i'm down to a very few good ones that literally can just hang out and do nothing with me!

  6. I really hear where your coming from (in regards to the political rant and all) but there is a completely different side that your not taking into account. I don't think he meant it in such a negative "you suck" kind of way. I'm not a big fan of politicians either but I understand that they have 1 public announcement and are judged so harshly for every word they say...if I was judged for EVERY WORD I said, whether intention or not, I'm just saying it wouldn't be pretty. I think he simply meant, we ALL get to choose what we do with our lives. And yes, it's unfortunate that some choose careers or jobs that they love that happen to not pay so well. But those people choose those careers. No one is forced into anything.
    My husband is only 25 and has been running his own business since he was 17 and some days it kills me to see how stressed and over worked he is but because of his sacrifices we're able to live very comfortably. But still with sacrifices. We're considered middle class so our taxes are through the roof (literally 37% of every penny goes buh bye) but I can't hate because I realize it's an imperfect world, full of imperfect people TRYING to make it right.
    I really don't mean to hate, especially since I usually really love your blog. But I think there's a bit of hypocrisy in this post as well. I know tattoos are pretty expensive. Maybe save your money that you'd normally spend on those kind of hobbies or activities and then you have that much extra cash for emergencies or rainy days...or invest. Your money is YOUR'S to choose what you do with it, that's all he was saying. People can do whatever the heck they want with their money...whether their smart, business oriented, or completely retarded decisions.
    That's my very long 2 cents. Haha. Sorry. I usually don't get involved in politics. Just because everyone has their opinion and usually they're not willing to abandon theirs.

  7. Lovely, Kara! I just clicked on your blog from your instagram (I'm 'kerrielove') and wanted to say hello!

    I have a blog too,



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